2025 has been interesting for many reasons but one area that has me flummoxed at the moment is how things have been for me energetically.

I don’t know what’s going on but the energy I’ve been receiving over the past few months has been confusing and this is coming from someone who can normally read people and situations easily and accurately.

Nervous Nellies

I’m finding that a number of people seem to be nervous in their interactions with me. This would make sense if I were cold, mean, bitchy or rude but I’m neither of these things without provocation, yet the fidgeting, lack of eye contact, stuttering, waffling, or in one case just staring blankly at me in response to me asking “how are you?” has been unnerving because why are you behaving like this? What is it about me that’s preventing you from communicating like a normal person? I really hope these people figure it out then stop because them being nervous makes me nervous, the staring freaks me the fuck out, and I’m a fellow human being so would like to be treated as such.

Random compliments

These have been coming in thick and fast over the past few months and they’re lovely, and I really appreciate them. That said, I’m suspicious. Also, as someone who struggles with receiving compliments, I sometimes get weird when I receive them. Sorry.

Exclusion

You do know that you can be nice to someone and still exclude them right? Some really nice people talk to me but only when they have to, only online or only on a surface level in comparison to their conversations with others that are free-flowing , meaningful and consistent whether online or in person. Again, I don’t know why because I’m approachable, but I suspect that this may have something to do with certain people not wanting to say the wrong thing to the woman with albinism (which might also be the same for the nervous people).

Listen, I know we’re living in the age of narcissism but d’you think we can stop centring ourselves for five freaking minutes and exercise some flippin’ empathy? Prioritising your fear of saying the wrong thing means that you’ll do one of two things: 1. Limit your interactions with certain people to such an extent that the interactions are boring, meaningless and create zero opportunities to really get to know each other, or 2. Say nothing at all. How do you think either of these approaches will make the other person feel?

Respectfully, get your head out of your arse and grow up.

Careless whispers

Ever had the feeling you’re being talked about? I’ve had this feeling for 7 months (and counting). I have no idea if what’s being said is positive or negative (maybe both) but I can feel that more is being said about me than to me. As someone that has no qualms saying whatever I want/need to say to someone to their face, (in a respectful and/ or professional manner of course) I find being talked about annoying at best and cowardly at worst. Of course, everyone talks about everyone at some point however, there are some people who thrive on gossip and supposition and can damage, if not ruin reputations and opportunities for the people they’re gossiping about if what they’re saying is bullshit.

So, these are just a few of the weird vibes I’ve been experiencing this year – I won’t even mention romantic energy and the weirdness I’m experiencing in that area.

Lots of changes have taken place this year and I have been and am being exposed to lots of new people and situations so perhaps all of this weird energy is part of the adjustment process. That said, I’m also undergoing some spiritual and emotional changes myself (again!) so maybe I’m experiencing a heightened level of sensitivity about certain things, have an increased awareness of the energies that surround me, or I’ve reached the point where my tolerance for certain behaviours is rapidly declining.

Whatever is happening, it’s definitely a confusing experience.

Have you experienced or are you experiencing something similar? If so, how are you handling it and what have you learned/ are you learning about yourself and others from it all? I’d love to know!